Saturday, June 25th, 2005
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11:30 pm - I am so damned...
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pissed off right now....I can't belive the...shit at work...I work my ass off to lose weight and look good...and now I am hearing that people are talking...about me using drugs to have lost so much weight. Can't a person just work hard and people be happy for them.
current mood:  pissed off
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Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
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8:15 am - Well today is the day...
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my 33rd birthday...God..I so hate that..another year gone by. At least this one was't wasted like the 8 years before. I am down 112 lbs...Since last year...and 15 sizes. I still have lots of curves but they are just a little more gentle...and I love the looks I am getting. My ex said I would never find another man...well I have found plenty...lol!!!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Divinyls-I touch Myself
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Monday, June 20th, 2005
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10:19 am - ok...so now I am really confused...
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The guy I have been dating may be lying to me....I got a call Sat from his "Fiance"...he's telling me that he doesn't have one and that I am the only one in his life and the was just his best friend's Woman playing a bad Joke on him....so now what do I believe...we live an hour away from each other!!
current mood:  confused
current music: Home-Michael Buble
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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
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12:18 pm - Well...the boyfriend and I are....
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discussing him moving in with me and my roomies in the near future...very scary...thing....I mean...am I prepared for this yet?? Well I will have to see... Hope all is going well with all my friends.
current mood: contemplative
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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
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8:30 am - Not much going on here....
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Life is still going good...working alot...but that is good for me...I haven't worked and supported myself for so long...it feels good!!!
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Monday, April 4th, 2005
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2:27 pm - Life is going good....
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Met a Wonderful man...hoping it works out...but if not... i know that they are out there;) never thought i would ever think of marriage again...but i just might down the road...gonna find myself a little more though. Hope all is going well with every one else!!!!
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Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
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10:51 am - How do I get over the feeling..
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of loss? Why didn't he love me enough to work it out? What did I do to deserve this heartache. I so want to be able to call him and tell him what a self-absorbed, ass of a person he really is, but he is in a new relationship, and is all happy and stuff. I want him to hurt and suffer the way I have, but as my family says he has no heart and probably will never feel that way, and it jsut pisses me off. I want to put him out of my mind, but I don't know how. Will he ever regret not working it out...I know I probably will be thankful in the long run that it didn't, but right now I just wish it did. Is he loving this other girl as much as he said he did me? I feel like I was his mistake and he will learn what he did wrong... or what I did wrong, in his eyes and won't do that again. Therefore he will be happy and I don't want him too.
current mood:  depressed
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Sunday, September 19th, 2004
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3:28 pm - Do you ever really wish...
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that you had never married the person you are divorced from? I so wish I had never laid eyes upon him in the first place. What stage of grief is this? I want the last nine years to never have happened. I am such a different person than I was then. I have lost so much of myself in the relationship...I tried to be who he wanted, then he ended up not wanting me anyway. What kind of crap is that? I now don't even know if I ever really loved him, though I really thought I did, or wanted too. Now I have to start all over, from a place I have never been before in my life. I had broken up from a serious relationship before, and I never once regretted that relationship. But this one I regret horribly and that hurts sooo much.
current mood:  crushed
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Saturday, August 21st, 2004
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7:17 am - Well I am feeling a little better...
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This morning...I am just sooo pissed that he did this to me. I have been unhappy in this marriage for a very long time, but I stuck it out because I believe in the sanctity of marriage and didn't want to hurt him...so he waits until he is unhappy and miserable and then dumps me so he doesn't have to deal with it...how super childish. I hurt now because I have this huge Void in my life and I don't know how to feel it. He has already moved on and filled his with another woman...makes me even hurt worse. I guess it can only go up from here!!!
current mood:  angry
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Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
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7:13 am - Well it has been a very long time...
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I am currently going through a divorce and I don't know if I can make it. I don't know how to stop loving a person that I have loved for 9 years of my adult life. I know I did a lot of things wrong but he could have done things a little different too, but instead of trying to work things out...he just called it quits and it hurts so bad some times I think I can't go on, but I have too. Its funny when I first met him I told myself I would never love someone as deeply as I loved my previous partner, because I didn't want to get hurt..and that one only lasted 2 years...Now I have been with someone for 9 years and I am just shattered. He has already moved on and It has only been a month and a half. How can someone just stop loving and caring for another so fast?
current mood: depressed
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Monday, February 9th, 2004
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1:00 pm - Well I have had some requests to update my...
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journal so I had just better do that...Nothing much has been going on but I am reading your journals. Bought a new house this last summer and other than that not much else. I hope to start posting some more pretty soon.
angel
current mood: cheerful
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Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
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7:45 am - Gosh, It's been a year since I have updated my journal...
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so much has gone on that it would take me to much time. Just here to say that I am getting back to the jist of things and may start to journal more now...we'll see. LOL!!!
current mood:  blah
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Sunday, October 6th, 2002
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3:18 pm - Well, I'm back!!!
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It's only been two weeks, not that anyone cares. :( Anyway its seems lik forever gertting caught up on posts. oh well i better get to it.
current mood:  awake
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Monday, August 26th, 2002
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7:52 am - I've decided that I have the most....
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abnormally challenged cat. He is obssesed with the bathroom. I can no longer go in there or he sits and whines at the door. he doesn't do this with my hubby, but maybe He is too boring, I mean he must like to watch me brush my teeth, pluck my eyebrows and do my duty. Most of the time when I take my midnight jaunts to the potty he is sitting on the rug under the throne(iffin ya know what I mean). I think I should rename him Tidy Bowl!! LOL!!! I'm just gonna say this "Squeaky,(aka Tidy Bowl) I ain't gonna get up and open that door no matter, how much you whine scratch or poke your paws under the door."
current mood:  giggly
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Tuesday, August 6th, 2002
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7:28 am - I just wanted to mention that...
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we are low on a few meds and would appreciate the donations. You can neomail them to me at uniquekat on neopets or give to the guild. Thanx!
current mood: awake
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Thursday, August 1st, 2002
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10:35 am - Do any of you ever have those ominous feelings...
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that you know somethings going to happen but you just don't know what? I had one this morning and it just came over me all of a sudden, I then had this urged to call my mom and she thought t was so weird because my 94 year old grandpa went temprary blind yesterday and his bp is 100/60 very low. They say these are the first signs of a stroke. Now I don't claim to be psychic but my mom gets signs and within a month or 2 someone dies in our family. Last month she had a sign where she saw my grandpa in the backyard and her front doorbell rang, No one was there! I just get overwhelming waves of dread. I love him so much, but he has lead a wonderful and fufilling life.
current mood:  gloomy
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Saturday, July 20th, 2002
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11:07 am - I don't know...
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what is going on, but I have found 4 codestones today!!
Good luck or something.
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Wednesday, July 10th, 2002
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7:18 am - Well just thought I'd mention...
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That my younger sister will be on a Baby Story at 11:30 am today. She was living in LA when she was preggers and she got on the show. She two beautiful twin girls. She and I both have PCOS but she is the first to have babies. I will post a pic of the littleuns tommorrow.
current mood:  anxious
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Thursday, July 4th, 2002
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9:05 am - Just thought I'd bpost a couple of pics of..
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Friday, June 21st, 2002
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7:47 am - Quick question....
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Which Birthday year has been the hardest for you? I turn 30 tommorrow and I have to say I don't like it!;(
current mood:  discontent
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